Feeling so terrible right now.

I feel that I hv done a lot of bad thing. I really dislike my actions.

Feeeeling super terrible,I bet with such attitude, my friends will soon leave me one by one..

I really feel like giving up on everything now. Really): 

Maybe holding on to something that doesn't belong to me only make me tired.

Yes, I'm tired and I'm also afraid to lose you guys. I hate it, I feels like everything is against me.